It's been a long time since I wrote my journal...I'm speechless from the abundance of things brimming in my heart. The sailing contingent will be leaving for Port Dickson in 2 wks' time, more than one month in advance of the SEA Games. Once again, I'm feeling the anticipation of home-sickness. Packing my bags is an easy task now, having all my gear in travel packs constantly, and in generous supplies to last for a long time. We've had 3 races in the last few weeks, mainly the China Open, Raffles Marina and National's. Technically, my performance was best in the China Open and I was mentally razor-sharp. My lack of experience was glaring despite having some good showings. Pumping was vigorous and technically correct. Fitness was peak and mentally aggressive. The diarrhea I got from Beijing set me back in the subsequent 2 races, having to struggle in a weak body, headaches and more aches. Pumping was at an all-time low...:( Otherwise nursing lethargy and fatigue, there has been some press conferences and interviews...We also had our suits tailored and other preparations seen into. Meanwhile, I'm tuning into the Spirit more and more, being increasingly aware of my inadequacy and the largeness of the task. I need His grace and empowerment!!! Painfully aware of my humanity and limitations, and achingly hungry for the Gold, I am standing on Mercy ground. Will keep our preparations constantly updated at PD. :)